The Dreamer

I can't quite believe it all ends tomorrow night. But since I began this blog with a very emotional piece on the initial split, a lot has happened. The Quarter Life Crisis reigns supreme but at the very least, there's some development in a few areas of my life.

I've been really lucky with my work situation, the gorgeous ladies at Britain Does Vintage have placed their belief in me to the point where I'll be with them in the office three days a week as well as taking on event days too. Out of, what feels like, nowhere and with zero qualifications, I appear to work in events and digital marketing as I have also nabbed an amazing position with an exciting local arts organisation. More on that to follow soon.

As for my personal life, well, I'll not get too involved but things aren't incredible by any means. I mean, my hair is a disaster. Never bleach your hair, just don't do it. My taste in men continues to baffle me to the point where I just don't know where I find them. Made some cracking Vines this week and gained a fair few followers (yes I care lots about this - do you even know me?) and I'm on day 3 sugar free with Revis, 21 days left to go. Oh and I'm moving to York at some point but I just can't do it yet. My gut says no.


My first fight was so awesome and I'll officially be training for my next one from next week. Farhad said tonight to a new gym member that "Gina has more bollocks than most men to get in the ring and fight." That was the nicest thing he's ever said about me. To be seen as one of the gyms' fighters is pretty cool, though I've got some hard work heading my way, that's for sure.

The Bobby Pins

Then there's music stuff. Loving my Bobby Pins girls. Think Andrews Sisters, close harmony stuff with less choreography (for now..!) really enjoying going back to my roots a little with some "proper" singing. Yesterday I gigged with Stoney who has made his return to Sheffield after a 7 year stint in the states, it was a shambles but hey, we did it. Looking forward to that developing and working with new musicians, Mark Stoney is ace and despite knowing him for less than 2 months feel I've made a friend for life. Then there's Sofar Sounds. It's really building up momentum with a strong team who are totally in love with music and the whole concept. December's show is going to be so ace you must sign up. Now Maldini were and still are the biggest and most intense musical project I've ever been involved with. Off the back of it I've recorded the theme song for a cartoon called Wakfu and been asked to be the guest vocal for a pretty big French electro band which is very exciting. Hope to tell you more about that soon.

I know, right?

Well Gina, it's all falling into place, right?

Kinda.

You see, there's this gaping hole. It lies at the pit of my stomach or the small of my back. Part of me thinks that perhaps I just need to get over the split and it'll go away, or get filled with career success, a loving relationship and a full function singing schedule and then I'll be satisfied. Last night I sat in my car listening to a live lounge on Radio 1. I'm never going to do that. I saw The Half Earth perform and thought, gosh he's good, he has a great year ahead of him. I don't. Oh but it's OK, you're playing with Stoney,you'll be gigging in 2015. But it isn't mine. As wonderful as everything I've already mentioned is, I'm not happy with it all. I'm not ready to accept that this is the end of my time as a singer, songwriter or performer in my own creative right.

I'm quite scared to admit this publicly, but there it is. The spanner in the works.

I think I'm turning into one of those follow your dreams types.